"but the place you really belong isn't some concrete thing like a chair, but more fluid and indistinct. it might be inside my heart, or on the outside."

a journey of someone with loneliness that comes before it; the depressions and everything people who don't understand won't understand to. the story feels hit close to home. so realistic, relatable, even when i don't want to admit it to myself but the story feels way too relatable for me to control my emotions. i just wish the world was kinder to the author. to every of people who relate to most of things and even experience the same exact feeling the main character experienced.

the world should be kinder to everyone ㅡ all the people; the parents, the people around. after starting college, all those imaginations were ran out of its place, everyone expected you to be an adult who knows everything you want, who knows yourself the best, and someone who can figure things out. with how parents' expectations seemed to raised and the burdens, before we know it, already became too unbearable.

the average experience of a lesbian living with their parents and wanting to be a good kid. and when they're adults, all those feelings and their true-self are just something that surely will make their parents mad because they don't and they won't fit the society, the standard but just being themselves. how the stories tell us about someone with despressions and loneliness. exploring things to get to know themselves more and constantly making a small changes in their lives. with how hard it was for them to make a move at the first ㅡ there's just so many emotions inside this story. i hope everyone who finds this story relatable, will also find their small steps to make a change for themselves. maybe not today, but one day..

there was just so many emotions and how felt real the story was to me. for all the struggles the character experienced, the lesbianism, the need to be close with someone, the need to cling to someone, actually doesn't need sex but need to hold someone.. when they can't touch the person touching them on the bed, that was somehow felt so personal. i'm just happy towards the end that they feel lighter, they feel alive, and they don't feel the need to be too worry about others and too worry to make themselves fit into the society, and to please their parents. i hope the author is well and content with their life.

wasn't gonna write the review this manga like this but it turned out like i wanna say, by this review alone, to the authors, and to those who experienced/experiencing what the author experienced, that you are not alone. you are seen, you are valid, and you exist. i'm exist here with you. :)♡