Waking up from a nightmare is one of the best feelings I've ever felt in my life. My heart may be racing and my clothes may be drenched in sweat. No matter, how surprised or afraid I am. The first thought my mind races off to is the assurance that I'm awake. The realization that what I saw was just a dream. The knowledge that the world I woke up to is much better than the creation my dreams conjured up.

However, what if the world you wake up to is even worse than the nightmares you see? If that's the case. In what eye would you see the world around you?

During childhood, a child's whole world revolves around their parents. As a kid, whose care do you seek out for the first time? To whom would you tell about the things that made you happy? Whose arms would you seek peace when tears give way? A parent plays a huge role in being there for us. They're also the ones we first look up to. Most of our basic understanding of the world and people are gained through our parents. Both consciously and subconsciously our guardians influence a huge part of our lives.

Mokuzu ever since she was a child was tormented by both her parents. Especially her father. Because of a childhood of parental neglect and abuse. She doesn't even know how to read another's emotions. This however does not mean she's impartial to them. When Nagisa dragged her up the mountain to her pet's grave. Her reluctance to push forward was evidence for it. It was her moral compass that was different to that of a normal person.

Take the rabbit massacre for example. Though I'm somewhat confused about her incentives. It's clear she didn't feel guilty for it. Or else she wouldn't go about putting one of its heads in her bag. She may have very well considered it a trophy. The weird thing is. I can't help but think Mokuzu's incentive was somewhat related to his father's incentive to kill Pochi. He killed the things he cared about. So it's possible for Mokuzu to have an interest in killing something her friend Nagisa holds dear as well. There's also the possibility of the whole thing being done aimed at Kamajima. Mozuku knew Nagisa had feelings for him. And because Nagisa ignored her the day before the massacre. As an act of jealousy. She took it out on the helpless rabbits.

If you close your eyes for a couple of minutes under direct sunlight and open them up again. You'd definitely be blinded by the Sun's intensity for a couple of seconds until your retina adjust. After a couple of minutes, you might even forget how bright it was. Similar to our eyes. Our brains try their best to normalise everything. When we're put in an unknown and foreign situation. We try our best to adapt. To get along.

For Mokuzu a life of torment is the kind of environment she's normalized herself to. With a heartless parent to top it all off. To fill the void in her heart the lack of a loving parent had created.

As an alternative, she looked to make a friend. A friend who'd be willing to fall head over heels for her. In the end. For her, Nagisa was the chosen one. Two companions who bonded through one commonality. Tragedy.