AkamataaSake

Post Date 06/01/25: Hey it's Pride Month yall and okay so, I have sort of an announcement I've decided to make I guess?

This is something I've debated coming out about on here, and other places, for a while. This is actually a lot more difficult than I thought it would be and I am actually shaking while writing this.
So this might not come as a surprise to some of you, it also may piss some people off or straight up anger some, or have some claim I'm a liar or some garbage like that, and to them I'd say well too fucking bad.
This is who I am, and protecting my peace is far more important than broadcasting it to the world for whatever reason. But because of how crazy things are in the world, or rather in spite of it, I've decided to stop "social masking" and pretending to be something I'm not.
So as to re-introduce myself, or actually really introduce myself for the first time, my name is Deanna.....and I am a transwoman.
I've been living as a woman in a lot of aspects of my life for several years now but this is the year I've gathered up enough courage and decided to embrace it as fully as I can right now.
This is something I have debated with myself back and forth for years. Constantly in doubt as to whether it was the right choice or not. I'm still not sure tbh.
Like, I'm pretty damn old and transitioning at this age seems a bit ridiculous for myself.
But I also realized the next year, 5 years, 10, 20 are going to come anyways whether I want it to or not so why would I continue to be miserable and living a lie instead of just doing what I want, what I need for myself?
I've been in the community and fighting for lgbtqia+ rights for over 20 years and out as queer/pan for about 10, but I never faced or came to terms with this part of myself until the last few years.
I constantly pushed it down and put it away and just focused on surviving day to day and kept masking also day to day.
But a few years ago, the first time I was ever referred to as woman, it was like everything suddenly clicked.
I've never experienced anything like it.
Suddenly years worth of all sorts of random shit made sense.
It was overwhelming and I broke down for a few hours.
I know this is the absolute worse time to choose to transition considering everything going on in my country and in the world, but that also makes it the right time.
I don't really believe in supernatural stuff but sometimes the universe does naturally place a challenge in front of you and it's up to you to decide whether to take it or not.
A very big part of the reason I've decided to begin this journey is this website funnily enough.
I've met some awesome people and seen loads of support.
And more than anything this place has let me act like my actual true self for the first time ever.
It's allowed me to discover that true self really.
And the way I chat on here is actually how I've always really "talked" in my own mind, and how I've spoken to myself, but in the real world I've mostly had to mask.
So yeah, once again my name is Deanna, I also go by Dee or sometimes Auntie Dee, and of course AkamataaSake.
And yeah, I guess my egg is cracked lol.